you know, times like this, i really wish i hadnt done anything to myself. i find it stupid you know? i really want to change things. like change how my feelings are. i dont want it to run hay-wire anymore. i just want it to be a steady one. just relaxed all the time. but i guess that would be impossible.
i chatted with eve last night. she has some problems of her own. i managed to calm her down, but when she came to class this morning, she blamed me for making her more depressed and showed me her cut on her hand. i was like !??!?!?!what?!?!?!? then she told me she was kidding.
eve's a really nice girl. but she is just gets caught up in her emotions. emotions taking over body and soul. just like me. i feel the same way. i just cant seem to control anything anymore. its like, whatever goes, goes. sookie asked if i cried last night. i asked her back how does she know. then she said so its true? i just smiled and walked off. everyone in the class cares about each other. thats one good thing about my class.
nicholas talked to me while i was sending him home. he was talking about this MLM (multi level marketing) with Synergy. i was like, my mum just made me join a few days ago. he's already making US$100 and this is only his first week. not bad i might add. i thought i would be the only one doing it but i guess someone beat me to it.
life gets rather complicating at times. i just want it to be normal again. i dont want love. i dont want funky stuff on bed. i dont want anything to do with what they call "love". i just dont. i see girls differently now. every girl is different and it scares me. you'll never expect the things they do or say. it just comes straight to your face. i dont think i want to be in a relationship until im like 24. thats a good year. i would love to be 24 and stay that way. :) maybe i should just stop my birthday celebration at 24? what about that? hahaha oh well.
rick.
i chatted with eve last night. she has some problems of her own. i managed to calm her down, but when she came to class this morning, she blamed me for making her more depressed and showed me her cut on her hand. i was like !??!?!?!what?!?!?!? then she told me she was kidding.
eve's a really nice girl. but she is just gets caught up in her emotions. emotions taking over body and soul. just like me. i feel the same way. i just cant seem to control anything anymore. its like, whatever goes, goes. sookie asked if i cried last night. i asked her back how does she know. then she said so its true? i just smiled and walked off. everyone in the class cares about each other. thats one good thing about my class.
nicholas talked to me while i was sending him home. he was talking about this MLM (multi level marketing) with Synergy. i was like, my mum just made me join a few days ago. he's already making US$100 and this is only his first week. not bad i might add. i thought i would be the only one doing it but i guess someone beat me to it.
life gets rather complicating at times. i just want it to be normal again. i dont want love. i dont want funky stuff on bed. i dont want anything to do with what they call "love". i just dont. i see girls differently now. every girl is different and it scares me. you'll never expect the things they do or say. it just comes straight to your face. i dont think i want to be in a relationship until im like 24. thats a good year. i would love to be 24 and stay that way. :) maybe i should just stop my birthday celebration at 24? what about that? hahaha oh well.
rick.
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